Paper planes…

I guess its beginning to sink in… the reality of everything that’s happening now… I can’t say that its bad… But I can still say its better… It’s been 2 months… And I think that it can get boring sometimes that I tend to just drown in movies and the internet… Before all this, I used to think of this… having more time.. Now that I have it… I have no one to share it with… All those person whose company suits me well are all far… People just can’t get the best of both worlds… Especially if it involves meddling with other people’s lives…

Right now, it feels like i’m a step away from taking the plunge… There’s a lot of people that I think I can get along with… Problem is that we may all have different definition of a great time, a great place and a great drink! I’m sure that these are all great people, its just that if I take this ride, I may no longer find my way back until that next bus stop… Though they say, you can always charge it to experience.. At some point, I think that I wanna grab that rope and just swing on the other side and find a life…. If I get burned? Then I’ll have it fixed…

Maybe I’m just afaid that if I do, then everything and everyone I’m holding unto will have a smaller space in my life… And right now, I dont want that… I feel like having them with me through simple things can still help me in becoming a better person… But lately, I feel like this distance is already takings its toll… It feels like everyone’s moved on while I’m still waiting and watching from the sidelines… And I wonder if this is what’s best for me… Should i take that step forward or should I stay?

I think I’ll keep it as a question for now… Until i’m faced with another crossroad… Maybe, then…