Misty

I thought before that writing would come easy when you will have time… That all those thoughts will come right through when you need to put them in paper or have them online through your blog… But it isn’t… Lately I can’t make something out of these thoughts, out of all these that grip me… I wish I’d find the right words! But its just that they don’t come that easy when your feeling everything that you want to write… Now I see that its a lot easier to write for somebody… To write those things they feel… those that they think… everything… But when it boils down to the writer, you will find nothing… And I wonder… Is that really how boring my life was? That I can’t find some worthy thought to write about… And now I remember, I do have something to write about… It’s nothing essential for any reader but I think that it is essential to me… Today, I woke up with misty window… And I felt happy… It’s nice to look at… The view outside getting blurry made me feel comfortable… Maybe, i’d like to think i’m in some other place… Somewhere nearer to home… But, its funny when I try to fool myself… Coz I can’t hold on to it for even more than 5 minutes! A few minutes later, the sun rises and I watched the mist slowly turn to water as they glide down my window… And there goes the view… Still, the sun rises from the nearest province of Spain and still there’s this vast ocean… The view is picturesque with each day but its just that sometimes its not just the eyes that want to feast on something great.. And I wish i’d see them here… Be with them… Just for a few minutes… Even without speaking… I just wanted to look in their faces the whole time… But really, it will have to wait… 10 more months… Just a little more… But even then, I know i’d still come back here… And i wonder why i keep on doing this… I know I have the choice to stay… But I chose to go away… Why is it that sometimes staying seems all wrong… That you end up really grabbing that chance of going away… Some think that distance can make them think (myself included)… But am I thinking now? Frankly speaking, I haven’t given much of a thought about life in general really during these past weeks that I’m here… Maybe I need some time… After all the new gets old, maybe then… Maybe all those thoughts will come… Thoughts are really never pulled… Just like all the feelings, they come to us freely… But we have the ability to shape them… this feelings and thoughts, like any other, do have their own good and bad side… it’s up to the receiver to which side he/she will look at… I can only wish that same as what I’m writing now, I’m looking at the bright side, too… Still…

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Misty

I’m looking out my misty window on a Sunday evening… Got my eyes wisty with the picture outside… I feel like i’m going insane with these misty thoughts… I hate it but I don’t like my weekends misty… they make me sick… maybe, beyond the mist, there is a good surpise but hey, I still don’t like this feeling of uncertainty… I want it out… I want to see clearly beyond this mist… maybe after the winter’s over… and when i’m right back to where the sun rises… there won’t be any misty write-ups as well… ‘Til then…

It’s 2012!

More pictures before this day is over! These were taken today – January 1, 2012! I wish there’s more to say!

3… 2…. 1… Boom! And there goes the fireworks!

Last night was a blast! I had a great time! Met some new great people! And instinct tells me that there’s more firsts loaded in 2012! Whew! Anyway, it’s 10:54am of January 1, 2012… Just want to post some new pictures of the first fireworks display that I saw here in Gib! Fireworks had always fascinated me! There’s a different feeling when you’re watching all the lights and colors scatter accross the dark sky! It’s like new beginnings, new tales unfolding! And I can’t help but wonder what lies ahead! Surely, things are getting better! And then there’s a lot of dancing! Whew! This scares me for real! Dancing with two left feet!?! Arg! I knew I had to learn how to dance!

Looking back to the year that was – 2011

In less than 3 hours, it will be officially 2012 here in Gibraltar… And just before we go to Pete’s flat for a year-ender party, I would like to take a few minutes to write about this year that is soon to pass… In a way, Tolit’s gave me the idea to make a wrap-up… He already have his… And I think that it’s a great idea… And so here it goes as I look back to 2011…. 2011 has been everything… It’s been tiring and exhausting at times… Gone to some worst times… There are things that are better left unsaid… Things that are not meant to be written or blogged about… So let’s make a recap of the memorable events of 2011.

Let’s go first with the worst.

I won’t ever forget this last busy season I had. It’s a disaster. First and foremost is that it felt like I took a cup just because people expected me to and not because it was actually given to me. Had the worst encounters and I knew then that I had to go. Hard to work when you know that people don’t trust you enough to know what you’re doing… I don’t want to sound bitter or anything, but its just how I saw it. If I hadn’t got out, I would have lost the littlest interest I have for audit. That season really made me think of whether I made the right choice of taking accountancy. Not when I can’t even give the basic answers to basic questions. Not when people do not learn from you. I thought of staying but after getting the same accounts, I knew I have no way to make it up already. I’m blogging this now so this will be part of 2011 and no longer of 2012.

The Goodbyes!

Finally, I resigned! Effective November 18, 2011, I’m free! Though I know that its not exactly how I once pictured it to be but nevertheless, this is how it turned out. Better make the most out of it. Said goodbye to that place that took me in for almost 5 years and to bunch of great people! But i know that it’s only for a while! Sooner or later we’ll all be stumbling to each other! And the world seems to be overflowing with new beginnings, new chances, new mistakes where new lessons will arise and a whole lot more!

Next were the opportunities (yuhoo!!!)

This year, despite the struggles during the first quarter opened a lot of doors. I was able to get several job offers. One from EY Jeddah, another from a motor company also in Jeddah. Offers from PwC Gibraltar, Deloitte Malaysia, Moore Stephens Indonesia, and BSP also came in the same week. I knew then that this is it. He’s giving me this year to start a new job where I can make a new start.

All the firsts!!!

1.It’s my first christmas away from the Philippines. It’s a little lonely not because of homesickness but because you simply missed the crowd in the Philippines (who would have thought I will be missing that one). I don’t know but there’s that sense that makes you feel at home amidst the busy crowd. Unlike here, you really stand out since you look different. But people are never racist. They’re cool! I’m just trying to get used to all these. In due time.
2. Another first is my first international flight to Gibraltar. I didn’t notice the entire ride since I was literally asleep for almost all the time. I’m only awake when there’s food. hahahaha. Plus, though I was not able to really check these cities, I’d still like to include it in my list. I’ve been to HongKong and London, although its just in their airports… Funny how we were only in HogKong for like 10 minutes due to delayed flight from the Philippines.
3. My first glimpse of The Rock and the Spain (literally from my window)! And all i can say is “Cool!!!”
4. Also, my first Heineken! hahaha! Plus, I got drunk with just one glass of this drink that’s a mixture of rhum, vodka, whiskey, etc. I just realized that I’m a little chatty when I’m tipsy! hahahaha
5. My first time to wear tuxedo! Not to count that instance when I was making my purchase though!
6. Also, this month of December has been the first time where I’ve gone to a couple of parties where there’s lots of dancing and drinking… And I always wonder why I had to be there when the music and spirits begin to fill the air!
7. There’s a bunch of firsts when it comes to food, too. Baguettes, kous kous, etc! But i’m missing those homemade sinabawang gulay and pinakbet!
7. Lastly, my first time to get real sweet kisses in the cheek from pretty ladies! Everytime you stumble unto someone that you know and everytime you leave a party, then you get them spot on! hahahaha! I definitely can get used to this! hahaha
8. I’m sure there’s more but I just got back from the street party! So I’m a bit tired and I might as well call it a night! It’s already 3:35AM and I started this blog at around 9:30 and left it behind without posting hahahaha… I’ll try to post when I get to remember anything particular!

Anyway! It’s really been a great year! And it can only get better! God bless this new year!

Bye 2011! Been a great year!

Today calls for a double celebration! Its December 31, 2011 and its the last day of the year… What better way than to wave goodbye to 2011 with great thoughts, cheers and smiles! Though far from home, its never an excuse to have a great time! Plus, I need to mention this… I’ve been here in Gibraltar for a month now! Wow! All those days gone! But there are more better days ahead! What do you think? Of course! It’s actually in people’s hands how to make their own better days! There are some things that are really out of our control but why bother focusing on them… You can’t do a thing about them anyway! Let’s focus on those things that we can change! And maybe we’ll all be better people after!

Looking back I still can’t believe that this is finally happening! It is always wise to trust HIM. In HIS time, everything will happen! It may not be as we want it to be but trust that it is way better! And worst is if you won’t realize it when you get there… Just take your sweet time and enjoy everything… Every second is an inch closer to where He wants us to be! His plans for us is way beyond ours! Sometimes even beyond our understanding! Just sit back and you will see things unfold!

Good cheers for 2012! Just take the back seat and let HIM lead the way! Its sure to be a great ride!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! May GOD bless us all!

Christmas!

It’s 1:58PM in the afternoon of December 24, 2011 here in Gibraltar… Whew… We’ll be a bit busy later preparing for Christmas so I better do some blogging before all the space gets crowded… Well, let’s take a walk down the memory lane.. Years ago, I’ve always loved christmas because of all the good food in the table… Plus, new clothes to wear… It’s easy to ask for things during christmas season unlike when its not… Maybe due to the spirit of giving… And note that in the Philippines, it’s actually christmas season, not christmas day since its beginning in September and would last until February… really festive… for as long as the chilly wind is there then its christmas still… When it comes to food, I’d always wait for the macaroni salad… been addicted to the elbows (is it a type of pasta?) hahahah! I’m not particular with the ingredients and the whole of process of making these dishes, I’m only after the finished products I missed those days when I would like to curl up in bed due to chilly breeze… And the long vacation from school! I missed that…

Then things slowly changed, I became a teenager and its not that I’ve lost my liking for gifts but rather, it took the backseat… Gifts are no longer that enticing… But my wanting of the macaroni salad? That never changed! And during that time, I think i began to like the idea of christmas parties at school and with friends… It’s the time when you realize that there’s a bigger world outside your home… And there’s a whole lot of people to share it with… And then there’s this liking for firecrackers growing… and i’d be saving for these things! Then just be wasting them after the noise and sparks!

Again, the wheel turned and I’m now an adult… Things unfold in a different way now… It’s no longer about the entire world but you begin thinking about yourself and then you look back just so you will know what you exactly want in the future… I just hope that this part do not come in late for most people just so to avoid the rush… What I meant is that you come to that point where you get to think of what you want for this christmas! Then suddenly you want a family of your own… your own kids… a good life for them and everything else follows… You take a full circle and then you’re back to how you’ve began… You would want to spend christmas with your parents again and draw them closer because you want to learn from them… from their past… It seems that we always come back home… Maybe its the way things are… Its human nature to be attached to where they’ve come from… It’s the feeling of knowing you belong to someone or that you have somewhere to go … Someone to go home to… And christmas simply reminds us that… This special occassion presses that thought that no matter how busy you were and no matter where you are… there’s this place… there are these people whom you should come home to and spend that special day… After all, it’s He where all of us come from that is born on that day! It may not be the exact day as according to history, but at least, its the thought that counts! And its in how we spend it that matters most… Not in the gifts! Not in the food! Not in the clothes! But rather being with those people that you love and just sharing the joyful spirit of love… Maybe its a cold christmas for me this time since I can’t be home… But that would only mean physical absence because in thought and spirti… I know I’m home!

Merry christmas!

Happy 3rd weeksary! :)

It’s our 3rd week here in Gibraltar! But it felt like months already… Why? Coz i’m trying to drag the days so one year will pass and I will be going home!!! There’s that wanting to go home and I no longer think that its because I’m homesick or what… But rather its because I actually have a home to go to… Unlike here, i’m the one who’s foreign… Not them… Ironic coz I’ve always been saying during my first few days here na andameng foreigners! hahahah!

Going back, It’s been a busy day… uhmmm… wait a normal busy day coz its only from 9am to 6pm with a one hour break at 1pm for lunch
Though busy, i find it cool! They always use that word here… Hahahaha! Might as well blog about it! Its nice though that after they give instructions, they always say “cool?”… How cool is that!?!

Well enough of the coolness! Let’s go to a day-ender! I’m about to sleep since its 10:36pm… I’m 36minutes past my bedtime ahem… Haaay… there really is nothing to write about… Maybe I’ve used up all my energy working… The most difficult part is my ability to comprehend since i’m not yet used to their accent…

It’s really running late! Gotta sleep! Still need to be at the office tomorrow for some christmas activities! Yahoo! I hope there ain’t much work to do! Just some cool stuff!

seconds…

Just a few more days and it will be christmas…  Suddenly its creeping in…  And I can’t help it…  That piece of reality grows more and more…  I’m away from home…  Its both a sacrifice and reward…  But, just to put it simply…  There are some days when you just wanted to go home…  Yeah, the place is undeniably a great one… everything is just amazing…  However, there are those 26 years that you just can’t leave behind all at once…  Maybe a few more days… or weeks maybe?  Months? After that, then maybe I can see clearer…  Once more, I can make future plans…  better ones even…  All i know then is that I had to take this plunge…  And I find it worth it… sure there are those people that really matters and who are hard to leave behind… that’s for sure…  but I just wanted to get rid of the ”what ifs” …  There’s work tomorrow… I better sleep…  It may be a long day!  just keep on smiling….